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Name: melissa
Country: Malaysia
State: petaling jaya
Birthday: 10/20/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: nothing in particular...just surfing the net and reading sume books...wat i actualli read???
watching tv....and obviously SLEEPING..which is the classic hobbby i totally like......
Expertise: haih....i dun perceive i haf any expertise actually...so i will just leave this out....
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
ICQ:  117166752
Member Since:
2/3/2004
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| Alone,
That's how I am now,
Just alone,
Battling with my thoughts.
These moments,
I can never express in words,
As I stand in the empty room,
I feel myself floating into another dimension,
One that is so uncertain...
Yet in these moments,
I think of you,
And how much I miss you,
Oh so terribly...
The past seemed to me at this moment something which was so beautiful and that I am unable to once again enjoy the beauty of it as I stand now in the future looking toward what God has to offer for me and what I can receive. Yet, how foolish I was to limit the very things that God has plan out for me. I feel totally broken inside- just wanting God to fill my life once again with His presence and Joy. Joy is something I lost for the past 2-3 years. I was happy but I never felt joy up until 6 months ago; yet I doubted if it was joy I felt or merely a feeling of overwhelming happiness. Forgive me Oh Lord for my unbelief. Please help me in my unbelief as I really want to believe.
I learnt today that true faith is when every little ounce of pride is not present in us. It was truly what I needed at this point of time. We should never limit God to the certain needs that we want but to come before Him and asking Him to fill us and then we will see His power breakout in our lives. Pride is the one thing that witholds us from being sensitive to God and that true faith cannot be released.
Still feeling quite emotional, but I am trusting that as I open up my heart to God and just to be in His presence.. oh.. that feeling is just unbelivable !
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| Everything went well just a few hours ago but now I feel upset, not knowing the true reasons. There's just this feeling of sadness just overwhelming me. I just feel like going to my room and cry till there's no tears left. What's happening to me? I haven't cried since 1 1/2 ago when a great crisis hit me. More like a tsunami hit me right at the heart. But things are going well these days but I just can't seem to feel entirely happy.
Self discovery is a must.....!!!
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| Just about a few months back I was worried that I might have to work
and forgo my dreams of any education after my diploma. So I frantically
applied for any available scholarship in the country. Well, for those
who prayed for me, thank you so much. I appreciate all your prayers.
Here is an update of the scholarship applications.
The Bad : I didn't get 2 of the scholarships that I applied.
The GOOD : I got called for 3 scholarship interviews. One of which was
the previous week and last week they called me and told me that I got
the scholarship to study a 3+0 UK degree with honors. And the best part
is that I only need to complete 1 year then I have a degree. It sounds
too hard to believe but Praise God.
Honestly, I wasn't particularly excited about the scholarship but for
now it is one of the option. Next up is 2 more interviews in May. One
to Monash University Malaysia. I am quite interested in that one but
Monash decided not to give me that many exemptions and I am left to
start year one semester 2. I was like what???.. ahhhh.. although it has
always been my dream to study in monash and they are offering me the
course of my interest BUT I think I am pretty tired and not motivated
to study again. Maybe it is because I graduated a few months ago..
hehe.. oh well, I'll see what God has in store for me.
For now, cheers everyone !
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| *looks left*
Finally I could upload the only picture I got from the 5 minute
makeover MAC gave me during their culturebloom celebration party. The
only piece of makeup that was still left on my face in that picture was
the colors on my eyes and a tiny weeny bit of foundation. Lipgloss,
blusher and whatever else was gone because my sister took this when I
came home which was way after the whole makeover. Still, in 5 minutes
they made me look different ! Imagine if I was there for a whole hour
or so??? *faints at that thought*
ps: my hair was in super mess. I am so going to change my hairstyle soon....
ps: and yes I put on weight.. so face looks fat. haha.. I am so going to the gym soon...
cheers!
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| Progression of our praise and worship unto God
1. Psalm 50:23
- ' todah '; to extend the hands in thanks ( thank offereings )
2. Psalm 28:7
- ' yadah '; to throw out your hands ( fervency, give thanks to Him in song )
3. Psalm 35:18
- ' halal '; to shine, to rave, to abandon your reputation, to twirl
4. Psalm 108:1
- ' zamar '; to worship on instruments, pluck strings under God's annoiting ( make music)
5. Psalm 96:2
- ' barak '; to kneel, to be still, to be quiet and listen, reverence before God, to lie postrate ( Praise His name )
6. Psalm 22:3
- ' tehila '; singing new songs about God, unleash and sing out a new song unto God ( Praise of Israel )
7. Psalm 63:3
- ' shabach '; to shout out ( My lips will glorify You )
We are to praise God just like how praise is like in heaven ! Supernatural things happen when our praises matches the praises in heaven !
cheers!
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